them?

Once upon a time I used to venture out in the daylight hours and be appalled by the people I'd see. The world overrun by pitiable wretches: old folks scavenging for senior coffee & triple coupon deals, lone parents muttering gibberish whilst overseeing their brood of kids in a McDonalds booth, & businesspeople sitting by themselves, staring & slack-jawed, most likely contemplating suicide.

So let me just say it was much to my unpleasant surprise this past tuesday, when I drove out aimlessly to grab a bite to eat before landing in a (surprise!) McDonalds, that I completely felt like one of them for the first time that I can truly recall. Defeated, bitter, hopeless, & lamentable. I could have just as easily been biting the heads off those kids around me as chewing on my french fries because I really couldn't have given less of a shit. Whenever I overheard smatterings of lame office-lunchy conversations my first thought was, "well, I guess that's reasonable stuff".

Suffice to say, this has been quite a shitty year for reasons I can't quite put a finger on yet. Scary, but I hope it's just a phase of weakness that I will quickly pass through. I've got quite a few years left before I can get that senior discount coffee...